It’s now 11 days since my dear mum passed away very suddenly. I have been unable to find the strength to write about her death on here until today and even now I’m not sure it’s the right thing to do. The shock is still all encompassing and affects everything I do or say. We hadn’t prepared ourselves for losing her (as we had with my dad who died ten years ago from a prolonged illness).
One day mum was here, chatting on the phone with me about school which she always took a great interest in, about Tom, her only grandson who she loved dearly, about a myriad of things we both had a mutual interest in. The next day she was gone, never to be conversed with again. She was never ill. She was a very youthful 73 with so much left to do. She hadn’t finished with life.
I miss her so.
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Awww Nikki, I am so sorry to read about your loss.. my heart goes out to you.. can’t think of what to say apart from your mum will be with you all ways.
All my love to you
Pixie xxx
My Nikki,
I guess it has been hard for you to write about it.
I keep you always in my thoughts, hoping the days passing by will ease a tiny little bit your pain.
Much love your way my friend.
xoxoxo
Dear Nikki, I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. I know she’ll live forever in your heart & that time does help. Today sounds like such a tough day for you. You’re very much in my thoughts!
Warm hugs xxx
beautifully put Nikki. A painful diary entry for you to write, I know. I hope Dave is back home now. You are top of my thoughts for tomorrow. xxx
Oh, Nikki, I’m so sorry for your loss. Warmest hugs to you!
just me. wanted to leave a paw print so you know I’d been by xx
Oh, Nikki. I just read your comment. I am so very sad to learn of this great loss. Please forgive me for neglecting you during those difficult first days. What a emptiness you must feel not having her on the other end of the line, although she will truly always be with you as you replay thousands of conversations you held with her over a lifetime. I’m so sorry you had to lose her so suddenly and wish I could be there for you in some small way. Love, Julia
just me. wanted to leave you a quick note, but will email later.
Basically, I’m just fed up of having my diary posts ‘corrected’. I can’t tell if it’s meant to be amusing or patronising, but it certainly feels like the latter. I’ve ingored previous comments, but I think the one on Monday just took the biscuit and totally crushed my happy mood. It’s made me question if I really want to continue doing something that ends up making me feel like I’m being patronised all the time. Add to that the two stalkers and it just hacked me off, I very nearly deleted the entire blog because I felt so fed up with it all. So for the time being R&T can stay on a break.
I hadn’t realised how close Easter was, so it’s worked out well and I can get things done. I’ll update CR as and when because I’m being crafty and creative.
Thanks for your email. The photos were gorgeous. I admit, it made me feel so sad for you.
On a happy note, I’ve just had a routine visit to my doctors. When looking at his notes he said he just needed to check my age. I confirmed it and he said ‘whatever you are doing, continue to do it, I’d have put you at 27!!!!’ wow! I can’t tell you how cheered that made me. When a man of medicine thinks you look ten years younger you can’t help but smile! Bless his heart!
must scoot. Things to order for Easter, a craft to continue. Wish I’d started it earlier than this!
xxxxx
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